Have you ever done something In your life that you thought you were doing correctly and then when you completed what you were doing you started wondering if you did it right. That's where I am today. Colton graduates on Saturday and it has weighed heavily on my mind. I just keep asking myself did I do it right? Did I give him all of the tools he will need to be a productive member of society.
If he fails it has to be my fault and I have to take responsibility for it because it will mean I left something out that was important.
For as Happy as I am about Colton Graduating I am also sad because so many memories have been going through my head. The times he and I have spent together good and bad has given us a tight bond and even though hes not moving away I feel like Im loosing my little buddy the one that when he was just a yr old helped me put together his own toddler bed so that his new sissy could have the crib. I remember the times when I was in the police academy and working nights and having to sleep and study during the day and He would come crawl in the bed and cuddle up next to me and wake me up and the time when he was 10 and decided to play dirt clod wars with friends only to end up a the hospital getting stitches in his head from the rock no one new was in that last clod of dirt.
It is just crazy how you can go from the ultimate joy of your children being born to the internal struggle of knowing that they have become adults and you have to let them go and face the world.
I am so proud of Colton for what He has accomplished and I know that this is just the beginning for him.
Way to go little man I love you......